Vicky Pattison took to Instagram on Friday to admit she felt ‘depressed’ and ‘anxious’ – just hours before her wedding to Ercan Ramadan.
The reality star, 36, is due to marry builder-turned-personality Ercan, 30, this weekend at Marylebone Town Hall.
But Vicky told how her premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PDD), which gives women more severe symptoms of premenstrual disorder (PMS), is affecting the run-up to her special day.
She shared photos of herself in her underwear looking bloated and also heartbreaking selfies of herself crying.
Vicky wrote a lengthy caption with the post, and it began: ‘PMDD and life’s significant moments..’
Vicky Pattison, 36, took to Instagram on Friday to admit she felt ‘depressed’ and ‘anxious’ – just hours before her wedding to Ercan Ramadan, 30
The reality star is due to marry builder-turned-personality Ercan this weekend at Marylebone Town Hall (pictured at Vicky’s hen do in early August)
Vicky told how her premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PDD), which gives women more severe symptoms of premenstrual disorder (PMS), is affecting the run-up to her special day
She continued: ‘This most won’t make sense to a lot of people, to some it may seem dramatic, & if this doesn’t resonate with you at all, that’s ok.. you can keep scrolling. Because this post is not for everyone.
‘One in 20 women suffer with PMDD. However the actual figure is believed to be so much higher due to women being misdiagnosed, ignored & gaslight into thinking they’re hysterical.
‘So if you are one of that one in 20, or if for a week to 10 days of the month, that luteal phase before your period, you simply don’t recognise yourself- then this post is for you.
‘Believe me, in the week before my wedding I didn’t want to be this person… you imagine being excited & happy, having little dickie birds pop your dress on for you… instead I’ve been depressed, anxious & self critical filled with feminine rage, hopelessness & exhaustion.
‘That’s what PMDD does.
‘PMDD is like building a sand castle of good habits, positive moods, & a loving personality then watching it all get swept away to leave depression, anger, hopefulness, & anxiety in its wake. The wave recedes. You begin to rebuild, just as a new wave crashes.
‘And you know the REALLY annoying thing? Is just as your period ALWAYS seems to fall when you’re going on holiday.. that spicy PMDD week always manages to be when you have something significant going on, something where you could really do with being your bright, shiny, BRILLIANT self.. rather than this anxious, suicidal little shell of a woman
‘We can’t control when that wave crashes.
She shared photos of herself in her underwear looking bloated and also heartbreaking selfies of herself crying
Vicky wrote in the caption: ‘PMDD and life’s significant moments..This most won’t make sense to a lot of people…if this doesn’t resonate with you at all, that’s ok’
Vicky wrote: ‘Believe me, in the week before my wedding I didn’t want to be this person…I’ve been depressed, anxious & self critical’
Vicky explained to her 5.5M followers what it was like living with PMDD
Vicky added in the comments section that though her hormones will affect her personality, she is still going to enjoy her wedding day
‘I’ve had messages from women saying that PMDD has robbed them of loads of things.. it’s shown up on birthdays, graduations, job interviews, it’s stopped them being the mother they wanted to be a lot of the time, it’s made relationships strained, it’s stolen moments that should have been happy.
‘I wish there was a super upbeat conclusion to this post, that I was going to end it by saying ‘but I’ve found this pill & now I’m feeling great’ but there isn’t, instead , I’m just going to say that to anyone suffering- I see you, I get it and I am sorry ��
‘But you know, as powerful as those thoughts & hormones can be..
Vicky contiued in the comments: ‘But you know, as powerful as those emotions and hormones can be.. I’m adamant they aren’t going to take this moment from me. I might be slight more prickly of a bride than I was intending.. think less Cinderella and more Ursula the sea witch.. but so what?!
‘That floaty old hag deserves her happily too! I mean, maybe she was just misunderstood anyway
‘MAYBE SHE HAD PMDD??? (That would actually explain ALOT!) What has helped me tremendously through this journey is getting my friends and family to understand and know what I’m going through.
‘So if you’re struggling with PMDD and fear the person it makes you, you’re scared of people not understanding.. help them understand- explain what you’re feeling, how scary it is.
‘And even if these significant moments don’t look exactly how you imagined them or wanted them.. with people by your side, who love, support and are trying to understand.. things just are a little bit easier ���� Love you all.’
Vicky will tie the knot in front of 150 of her friends and family, before jetting out to Puglia for another lavish ceremony which will air on Vicky Pattison: Destination Wedding
Vicky will tie the knot in front of 150 of her friends and family, before jetting out to Puglia for another lavish ceremony which will air on Channel 4 on new show Vicky Pattison: Destination Wedding.
The I’m A Celeb winner, who was announced as Queen of the Jungle in 2015, will then cut her Italian honeymoon short, so she can begin filming a brand new dating show.
Vicky and her beau Ercan, 30, will join a long list of celebrities who have held their nuptials at The Old Marylebone Town Hall.
Dubbed the ‘Rock & Roll Wedding’ venue, Sir Paul McCartney and Nancy Shevell, Liam Gallagher and Nicole Appleton, and Antonia Banderas and Melanie Griffith have all said ‘I do’ among its plush surroundings.