Molly-Mae Hague, who announced her breakup with co-parent and former fiancé Tommy Fury in August, has bravely opened up about her mental health over the festive period in a new vlog posted to her YouTube channel on Christmas Eve.
In the video, which also sees her reflect on various festive activities – including visiting Lapland UK with her daughter Bambi and discussing a last-minute shopping trip in Manchester’s Trafford Centre – she got candid about experiencing low mood amid all the Christmas excitement.
“I have found the last few days quite challenging mentally, and I have been quite down to be honest, and I haven’t felt like picking up my camera,” she explained.
“Even if I had felt like picking up my camera it would be like fake happiness and fake giddiness for Christmas – I would never come on and act a way that I’m not feeling. Hence why I’m coming on now and telling you that I have been feeling a little bit low.”
The Maebe founder then reflected on how the festive period can bring up difficult emotions, something which she admits she didn’t relate to until experiencing it first-hand.
“It’s so sad when people say that Christmas brings up emotions, and for people it can be a really, really sad time of year. I feel like I’ve been so blessed in my life. I’ve never really had to feel that way at Christmas, it’s always been a really positive time for me.
This is the first Christmas ever where I can really understand when they talk about how it really makes you feel. When you’ve got things going on in your personal life it can really bring it all up and make it feel ten times worse. So I’ve just been feeling really deflated.”
Molly-Mae then brought up a lesser-discussed aspect of festive sadness: feeling guilt about not being in the festive mood.
“To be honest, I was feeling a little bit guilty because all of my family have come down because I’m hosting this year and I […] felt like I wasn’t being the best host,” she shared. “I felt like I was kind of letting them down because they’ve come up all this way to spend Christmas here with us and I just didn’t feel like I could really be present because I had a lot of stuff on my mind.”
Sending a thought to Molly-Mae and anyone that’s struggling this festive period.
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