JOHN Barrowman has heartbreakingly told how he “planned his own suicide” after being sacked from Dancing On Ice.
The former Strictly Come Dancing star – who scooped the Christmas show Glitterball in 2010 – opened up about his darkest moments after being accused of sexual misconduct.
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In May 2021, it was confirmed that John, 57, had been removed from a Doctor Who show after he was accused of exposing himself on the BBC drama’s sets.
Glasgow-born John promptly apologised for his antics – which were described as “high- spirited behaviour, larking about and tomfoolery”.
Witnesses described the incident as an inappropriate prank, rather than sexually predatory behaviour.
But he was sacked from Dancing On Ice after the scandal in October 2021 and promptly “cancelled”.
John had only joined the show in 2019, to replace judge Jason Gardiner.
He has now told how losing his job had a devastating impact on his mental health as he bravely revealed: “I had thoughts of suicide, going out and trying to do certain things and harm myself, and a couple of times debating how I was going to kill myself.
“The thing was I couldn’t do it because of my family and friends.”
John married husband Scott Gill in Palm Springs in 2013.
Talking of the troubling situation he added to MirrorOnline: “I lost a lot of trust in other people after what I went through because people that I thought would’ve been there for me, ran.
“And a lot of them put themselves on the moral high ground and, to be honest with you, people in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.”
Talking of the lack of backing from those around him, he then said: “I’ve always been there for people. No matter if you come to me and I might not have seen you in five to 10 years and you need help with something, I’m there to help you.
“And that was the big realisation – a lot of people don’t give a s***.”
John, who came seventh in the first ever Dancing On Ice series at the time said his pranks were “only ever intended in good humour” and never meant to be sexual in nature.
At the time, he noted: “With the benefit of hindsight, I understand that upset may have been caused by my exuberant behaviour and I have apologised for this previously.
“Since my apology in November 2008, my understanding and behaviour have also changed.”
The star also hit the headlines after we reported how he walked out on Channel 4’s Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins during the first episode in July.
The Desperate Housewives alumini had started filming in New Zealand with a raft of other famous faces including Rachel Johnson, Bianca Gascoigne and Anthony Ogogo when he threw in the towel.
We then told how John had scooped a new job after quitting telly’s toughest reality series.
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He is now set to appear on stage in a brand new musical at locations across the UK.
John will be starring in selected dates of the upcoming UK tour of Dreamcoat Stars.
The show features artists who have previously played the role of Joseph in Joseph And The Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat.
He will appear as a guest star at three of the show’s dates later this year.
It’s thought that John will perform a number of songs from the hit musical as well as share stories from his time in the show.
The actor and singer will also take part in meet and greets and selfie sessions with fans prior to each show.
Celebrity SAS Who Dares Wins winners
Many celebrities have attempted the infamous Channel 4 quasi military training course – but only a select few have successfully passed.
Series 1 (2019) – Wayne Bridge
Series 2 (2020) – Locksmith and Lauren Steadman
Series 3 (2021) – Alexandra Burke, Aled Davies and Wes Nelson
Series 4 (2022) – AJ Pritchard, Calum Best, Ferne McCann and Maisie Smith
Series 5 (2023) – Gareth Gates
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